Quick Update

I HAD SEX

not Just Sex...

GREAT FUCKING SEX! BEST SEX LIKE EVER!

*readers clap*

Thx You

and Ive Stoped Cutting my self

*Readers: YAAAAAY*

Yep I know on a Roll Here
But hey Deep down in my pittyful heart I still feel for Her

*Readers: Grown*

SHUT UP!
neway
Bye

Howdy ya all
Small update

I have started to cut my self yeaah u know when you hurt your self on purposes don’t ask Why
"why"

Also My X said she loved her new BF hmm

*Slashes Arm*

I think she throws that word round 2 often had a verbal fight with the new BF 2

*Digs Knife into Arm*

Well what can I do? I am taking painkillers now as well
Maybe it all end out ok maybe not who knows

*Blood drips over keyboard*

I was Nice for about 5mins offered to buy a drink etc, then I got drunk and told her never to come back to my bar. I am an idiot really
At least no one reads this.

*Blood dripping over floor*

so yeah life sucky

Yay writing again yay well its an way of reaching out and “talking” * sigh *
Anyway
I’m still hung up over my X yes I know I really don’t understand why I just miss her so much everything about from her head to her toe, its not like I haven’t gone out and pulled I have I tell you now.. But its just that she’s in my head, a min doest go past when I’m not thinking off her I don’t want to be one of them crazy X’s that doest get a hint I just want her back.
I was @ a Gig n I saw her with her New BF I felt soo sick sooo angry I wanted to kill him but I didn’t do anything I just sat n watched them hug n kiss.
Maybe it was the way I was dumped it wasn’t over anything she nor I had cheated It was because she didn’t think I could handle it. AGHH bitch I so could she was stressed her 1st couple of months @ her new UNI maybe hey stress was high.
If I could I would of said No we can do this. Its not hard not like Guilford across the planet.
Now 6 Months later she got a new BF which cuts soo deeply I’m still after he, maybe its me being egotistical but I get he feeling she’s scared of me we want to be friends but she doest tex me back she always making excuse bout not meeting up I think she ignores me maybe I cant take a hint.. But I think she scared afiard to meet up rekindle love once had
Time is no healer it just hides the feelings I take her back in less than a heart beat if she would have me.
Maybe deep down she still feels for me but she hides maybe I just need to be around her for a bit just me n her no one else no Ben no ACM no one .. I’ll never know
Hey I can hear you all say
“Get Over it”
well I tired n failed I cant she’s in my head I cant change that now
“ahh you’ve dug your own grave..”
She dug my Grave I’m just goin to go lie in it

I miss her I Love Her I’ll wait . . .


Few lines from a song I listen to


If you're lost you can look and you will find me
Time after time
If you fall I will catch you I'll be waiting
Time after time
If you're lost you can look and you will find me
Time after time
If you fall I will catch you I'll be waiting
Time after time

Umm Just quick update

my new MSN name is

Negative outlook? Well that's how I'm livin'

yep

*sigh*