Ok it 3:46am Blogger time!

Soo what have I been doing well was happy but life slowly swirled down into a hole of darkness and despair! ..again

Cut my self tonight again for a while the bloods slowly trickeling down my arm.
But I didt do it for her No I did it for me this time it made me feel good a release from my life of pain n misery, I was happy but I don’t know whats wrong with me my heart just aches a hole that cant be filled.

She was out Pulling the ginger twat or Michael “Fucker” hepton. A “friend” whos out to get his leg over
*wipes blood from keyboard*

But I left them alone cuz I care, CARE what’s that just sum fucked up over used thought of imagination dreamed up in sum fuckers head
Then she kills my joy by pulling him then after she says wassup Fuck off im uspet

“Why?”

I don’t know I don’t care what u do, I don’t know why I feel ill I don’t know why it hurts.

“Why don’t u pull when I am around “

I do I am just Not so Obvious with it!

“You danced with those girls to get me jealous”

Fuck u!





So why care
If I don’t care it wont hurt me!
HURT ME!
HURT ME!

IT WONT HURT ME!!!

Ever…

When I cross the road I hope a car hit me I wish 4 it
When I sleep I don’t want to wake up.
One day it’ll stop, or I be stoped!

I don’t trust my self any More..
I need her in my arms.
Drip goes the red liquid.. when it stops.. if it stops..